Rawedgestudio's Weblog

rawedgestudio — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 14:53:15 +0000

it’s a beautiful day

rawedgestudio — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 17:38:44 +0000

just be outside today was a blast, it was so beautiful even the frost this morning at 5am….my daughter allie goes to beauty school, and today was family day, and you could bring family members in and do their hair……and” my daughter”(i hear PACO’S MOTHER EVERY TIME I DAY THAT). GAVE ME A GREAT HAIRCUT….i went and voted and not saying for who, does it really fucking matter….i only vote and pay taxes so i can complain…..and now i am home just chillin a bit…..i got a tat yesterday, and this one hurts a bit, it didn’t hurt when i was having it done………i love to get tattooed, i find it kind of relaxing in a strange sort of way…..and having the personality that i have, i need to date a tattoo artist for a while..OMG….did i say that….bad girl……..and did i mention i only date young guys………nobody reads this stuff right………good if you did…….

i have so many boxes to move and i just don’t feel like moving right now….is that ok to say that i just want to relax……….just chill…..and be still…………and be….maybe i will go and take some photo’s, outside, and then come in and chill………..why is it if i am not doing something, i’m like i am wasting time and should be doing 10 other things that i want to get done….and now i know it is ok to rest, it is ok to retreat, regroup and move on…….

i keep thinking i need a blog for this and one for that, but i really only need one……cuz not only i am an artist, but my life is art in the making, and no matter what i do it comes back to art in some form or another….but here is one of my dilemmas……I CAN DO SO MANY THINGS, BUT NONE OF THEM GENERATE ANY INCOME………(well, i cold think of a few but, we won’t go there)

we met on the web

rawedgestudio — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 23:51:39 +0000

today i gave myself an early birthday present…..i got a spider web tat on my left shoulder, i love it…..i didn’t do all that much art today, i painted a canvas bag that i am going to use to carry all the stuff, i require when i leave the house……it;s like having freakin’ babies again……..any way it has my basic black, red and white, and i just had to paint a big red anarchy A on the back………..i can’t make the bag all at once and it needs to develop on it’s own……

about my tat, i only have tats on my body that mean a great deal to me…………
this is a bittersweet one, it’s a thank you to someone who gave me back myself,and just let be, i was free to be just who i was….i was never so at peace with myself til i was with you……..the relationship was so real,it was sureal, and one of us couldn’t handle it and whimped out………….

i know i love this blog so much,cuz it’s so dark, and i like the darkness

rawedgestudio — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 10:34:44 +0000

HAPPY HOLLOW’EVE……………..

let the darkness begin(organ music in the background)…..or as those little buggers…………….TREAT OR TREAT………so day so far only had one group of about 12 come, and one kid get pissy when i said one piece only……bratski, there is a recession on……..and every year i run out of candy……..my 6 o’clock they’ll be getting granola bars and bags of popcorn……..but i am taking a picture of every kid that comes to my door……..i just love some of the costumes, especially on the little ones………..i hear more coming………..i have things i have to do today and in a little while i am going to take a nap…….and just leave a bowl of candy outside……and i did, and they took every last piece of candy,,,,,,,,,,,,,even the granola and health bars that i put out when i ran out of candy, and i know a couple of times, some mean kid (the bernie madoff) kind took all the candy………

i got no art work done to today……none, i hate those days,………friday i had to go and get my stitches removed……fine…..when i went to the ER, last week they gave me stitches, and antibio’s which i did not take cuz i don’t take unless i need them, so i tell the doc, can you just check my lungs, i have been coughing a lot, and he tells me they sound distance, like what does that mean, there in another state…………so guess what i am taking now……………you guessed it…………..and they make feel not right i swear……..so in the spirit of halloween i was a zombie yesterday for real………………

fuckyou shankofamerica.com

rawedgestudio — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 15:54:21 +0000

FIRST LET ME BEGIN BY SAYING………….KILL THE BANKERS……i don’t know if i need to say move or that is enough……………they whack you fees, when they should be paying me for borrowing money from me and part owner of our bank…….the bank the the united states government we the people bailed you out from……………remember that……..mr bank……..you fucking blowhard……………..they should have let all of the financial institutes collaspe…………you fucked up, you failed, next….that is what true capitalism is, cuz mr banks, you are the socialist…….you took the money…………..you begged for the money……..and guess what you should get a big bag of coal, for christmas, although that is going up in value……so how a bout a big bag of SHIT for you…………

it’s just my bitch page

rawedgestudio — Sun, 25 Oct 2009 13:53:29 +0000

if you haven’t figured it out yes this blog is my bitch rag……the place i go to vent …..so that no one hears me scream in cyberspace……………….right…………nobody sees this stuff………….i mean really it is only the internet………………….i have another blog too, i just started it …………….rawedgestudio.blogspot.com

it is about my adventures as an artist and get myself out there and network and sell art, and myself, (not that way silly)………..that’s the good news………….yeah for good news……….

now i am waiting for my friend mike the mechanic, wasn’t that a group once????? anyway he said he be here in an hour…..i guess we are all on different clocks………..

my leg feels a lot better, i am letting it air out now, the bandage fell off last night when i was sleeping…………….it looks real PUNK…………….and it’s still swollen……………

nic, i am sorry for being so cranky yesterday, i was hurtin, and life really sometimes sucks big time…………..it will get better………………and then it gets worse again life is a vicious cycle…………………………

HELP, HELP, HELP, or just some advice, and infromation please

rawedgestudio — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 12:15:31 +0000

if there is anybody alive out there, that actually reads this stuff i write…….and can help me out here let me know……what i want to do is set up a website, i have one that i have not used, but i don’t like it……so if anyone knows of a site that they use that is either free or inexpensive, please let me know……i would like to start a home-web based business, and would like any info on how to do it i am starting from nothing so any info you can pass on would be great……….and i would like to start another blog that is just about my art……my business will be my art and my artistic talents. I have big plans, and lots of ideas, but i just need that first bite of the elephant and then i can eat it one bite at a time…i have decided that at this point in my life when i have nothing to lose anymore, i might as well just FUCKING go for it…………..now is not too late, and now seems like the perfect time…..i just would like a little guidance, some

put a period at the end of the sentence and move on

rawedgestudio — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 21:09:52 +0000

or in layman terms be careful waht you ask for, asking is the same as wishing and praying…………….so i asked for a sign and you gave it to me loud and clear…..i heard ya………..it’s all good, be well, and happy wherever you are………….

one door closes and another one opens………but my life is like the let’s make a deal show and i always pick the wrong fucking curtain…………..so for right now i am going to forget about men……….cuz i try not to believe this……but they are all the same……and think the same…..and it gets old…………

and i found some good info today to get me started to get me back in a field doing art, and i am going to take full advantage of it….and get this business off the ground….i have to get my ass into a different mode and just fucking do it already…………the time has come…..your never told old…..ever til the last breathe then i will be old….and as a young blues singer once said “when you ain’t got nothin, you got nothin to lose”……….so stop, breathe………………move on………hold head as high as you can…………..smile……….and do whatever you have to do to get what you want………………………..

so this is october catch up

rawedgestudio — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 15:50:04 +0000

ok, am i fired up,,,,,,,,,,,,,,no………just bored…………..bored………bored…….i need to start putting my plan in action….tomorrow i have to go to workforce at unemployment…..and i want to see, if there is any program or grant money that they can help me get to what i want to do…….if i have to work for the next 30 years and never get to retire, i want to be doing something that i enjoy……and i would really love to teach art workshops to young children and teenagers……i have plans in my head and written down on paper……the major problem don’t have a business head, and i have a bad track record with financial responsablities……………it’s just not my thing……so i need to write down a better plan to present to however i need to get money from…………….and i want to be able to reach out to all the arts, music, reading, writing, and have children explore their natural talents…..before some fucker crushes their spirit………..so hopefully tomorrow i will know more and be able to reach out to whoever i need to…….so if anyone out there wants to start a business working with children and the arts…let me know……my head is fill with ideas…………….and since i know sometime in the near future not sure when, but someday, i need a new place to live and i was thinking of looking in renting commerial/residentail space……so i can have a place to live and work …….and don’t have to travel to get their……i can always be home and always ready to work…….it’s a win-win………

now i have to discuss music and the last 3 ‘ACTS’ I SAW……first let me tell you, that my music tastes ranges from garage bands to opera………………and everything in between, if it moves me it moves me, dosen’t matter the genre…..i even like a few country songs……..ok……..now i am not saying that i might not be just a little jaded………..cuz ………….i am…….but let me tell you, i was so uninspired by U2 and the boss…………and let me tell you in the past they were some of the best shows that i have seen……..u2, first please knock off the running joke with the rolling stones, guys please, both of you it is time to call a truce……cuz quite honestly i don’t give a fuck how big your stage is, i came to see you not the stage……and some people should just not play stadiums, that’s all i am saying…………and guess what folks………it’s ALL SHOW BUSINESS……………it is an act………..it’sonly rock and roll but i like it………….and bruce………….the show that closed giant stadium, babe, have to tell ya………….not one of your best…………..now it meet be me……but i heard a few people that saw u2 say they wanted their money back……all i can say is i’ve seen you better too………….stop playing these fucking MCstadium’s….you look like ants, and if i wanted to see ya all on video, i could stay home in my pj’s and watch ya all for almost free(remember this is america) on the net……and see better too………….i love the music…….i never thought i say this……….tone down the fucking stage………….and do what you do………….make music………..

so who does that leave me with, and who do i really want……

rawedgestudio — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 14:24:10 +0000

first, i have to say that i have been good and true to myself……………..i would never go out with a married man, i have more respect for your wife, whoever she is………..you want to flirt, i’ll flirt back when i am bored and have nothing better to do…………the married to the job guy, i admire you work ethic, but babe, lighten up, and have some fun……………..and then who is left, the one that broke my heart the day i met him………………..and the one that i think about, and can’t get out of my mind……….the one i want to be with, really be with, and i don’t even know if your dead or alive………………omg deja vu, i have been here before……………..that just blew my mind………….really…………wow………..is that why i keep dreaming of you david………….wow…..but it’s not about you…………..i knew your dead………..do i have to come and ring your doorbell and ask if you can come out and play…………………cuz i want you………….